Wanderlust

If you could go anywhere in the world, would it be to a "where" or to a "who"?

I recently had been asked this question and it became quite haunting. It is equivalent to the same question of; Would you rather be in someplace, or with someone? And that can easily mess with a person and their way of thinking. Its easy to be asked where you would go in the world, if only places were being talked about. Personally, I would choose a place like New York or England or Italy or Romania. These are vastly different places, and that is the point. I have always wanted to travel the world, live in a number of different places and leave my fingerprint in other lives and other cultures. Why? I believe that this world was not made for us to stay in one place. Why would such beautiful mountains and waterfalls and oceans be created if we were only going to stay in our small radius of comfort? Its almost a sin to do such a thing. To leave the world's beauty unseen and to live a small life in a small town, never knowing what else is out there. So really, the question of destination is a simple answer for me. Because I want to go everywhere, and if that were a valid answer than I would use it. But the question of which home you would go to, the one with the surroundings or the one with the heart. Which would you choose? And say you did choose to go to a person, which person would it be? Most would think this question is easy, but its really quite difficult. Who would I choose? Would I go to my mother, who raised me and loved me unconditionally? Would I choose my best friend, who knows me more than anyone else in this world? Would I drop everything and go to my first love, who loved me for me and never asked me to change? Or would I make the answer more simple, and choose a destination instead? To tell you the truth, I don't know who I would go to, if I had in fact chosen to go to a person. I have no clue, and I almost don't want to know. If I choose one person, does that mean I don't love the others as much? The answer is not at all easy, simplicity is not in the definition that created this question. There is no black or white, no easy and quick. It is hard, it is painful, it is brain wrecking and nerve wracking.

If I were drunk in a room with everyone I've ever loved, who would I run to?

This is another question that really disturbs me. I've loved many people, I have a large family so the room would have to be quite large. But I've also go friends that I've loved. I've got those few special people who took my heart. In this hypothetical room, where would I go? Which direction would I turn and what pair of eyes would I lock with before running into that one pair of arms? This question is similar to the previous one. Would I go to my mother? My best friend? My first love? Or maybe it would be someone different. Say this room also held the ones who I loved and had died. This means that my grandfather would be there, and my childhood dog, and my aunt. would I run to one of them? Would it be out of pure love and favoritism, or the simple happiness for seeing them again? This question goes deeper than its small seventeen words. I don't know how many times I sat next to my dog's old bed and wished for her to sit on my lap one more time. Or how much I wished I had gotten to say proper goodbyes to my grandpa and aunt before they passed.

The question goes even deeper than who I would go to, it also calls in who would be there. Would I be surprised to see someone in the room? Or even more surprised to see that someone isn't in it? And what if this room only help people who loved me back? Would the room be bigger or smaller? We all like to think it would be bigger, but the fear is that it wouldn't be. So would I be surprised and shocked, or would my assumptions be right? What if this room only held people that loved me, but I never loved them back? This room would surely surprise me, and I can imagine it would be smaller.

The truth is that there would be so many directions that both of these questions could go. Thinking about it too long could leave a headache, so I better stop now. This may have been a rant, but I'll call it educated writing from a deep thought. Call it what you want, but this sounds better. I hope I haven't completely bored you, or changed your outlook on life. In less, of course, that outlook is changed for the better. If so then I am honored. Have a lovely day, and if you take nothing from this post than at least take this. Call your loved ones, tell them you love them. Play with your pet and give your parents a hug. If you love someone, tell them. Because if you don't you'll never know. If they feel the same, then you could end up with the person you'll spend the rest of your life with. If they don't, then move on and know you are one step closer to finding that person. This life is a short one, so live it in the best way possible. Love your people and travel and live your dreams. I fully intend to, I hope you do too. Kisses x
-HMBrownie